Wednesday, October 18, 2017

Great Faith Is Hard

Do you know how hard it is to have great faith??  I mean, really.  I read about some of those Old Testament folks, and I'm absolutely AMAZED at the unbelievable leaps of faith they took.  They left the land of their forefathers.  Noah built a boat, and it had never rained before on the earth.  But he built a boat anyway.  Abraham tied up his only son and lifted the knife above his body, moments away from offering him as a sacrifice.  But he had faith that somehow God was in control and he trusted Him no matter what.  Elijah told the heathens to pour water on the altar just a few moments before he prayed, asking God to send fire from heaven.  I wonder if he ever doubted?? I wonder if it ever crossed his mind what would happen if God didn't come through??  

These men had GREAT FAITH.

And in the New Testament, too.  Fishermen left their nets to follow a Man walking by who said "follow Me."  A tax collector left his job to become a disciple.  Two men who were already followers of John the Baptist left him to follow Jesus.  Paul abandoned his entire life's work and belief system to follow Jesus and preach the Gospel to the Gentiles.  And he endured persecution, stoning, beatings, and yet he clung to Jesus and he had GREAT FAITH that no matter what, Jesus was with him.

They all had GREAT FAITH.  And I know that while the pages of the Bible don't go into much detail of what those men were feeling during those moments of decision, I can only imagine the faith it must have taken to do what they did.

I will admit my faith has been far from great recently.

My beautiful mother took 4 chemo treatments this fall . . . but was just too tired and weak to take the 5th and final dose.  So the doctors decided to give her a break for a few weeks to build up some strength before "maintenance chemo" begins.  And just when she was beginning to feel better, just when she had started to drive again and go to the grocery store by herself and putter around in the yard, she bent over to take off her shoe last week and her back started hurting.  After several hours at the Emergency Room Sunday morning they discovered a compression fracture at L3 in her lower back.  My mom has osteoporosis and arthritis and her bones are weak and brittle.  

There's really nothing they can do to fix the break, it will just take time to heal.  So they sent her home with pain medicine and muscle relaxers.  The muscle relaxers make her very sleepy and loopy so she isn't taking them at all.  She takes 1/2 dose of the liquid pain medicine, but it has some side effects as well.  My mom is tiny and frail and weak and struggles to eat enough just to maintain her tiny weight.  She desperately wants to feel better.  She wants to be normal.  She wants her old life back.  We all do.

I'm being brutally honest here, so if want a light cheery blog post you should probably leave now.  But if you trust in Jesus, I urge you to stick with me . . . just for a few minutes.  
Cause I'm gonna be real.

These days I look at my mom, and I look at the situation, and my faith feels so tiny it's almost non-existent.  Negativity and doubt have crept in.  Those emotions, and other situations in my life, have robbed me of joy and peace.  I had begun to accept the lies of the enemy.  Lies that said my Jesus wasn't going to come through.  Lies that said I was on my own in the midst of this raging, relentless storm.  Lies that told me to give up.

But today I saw a post on Instagram that was exactly what I needed to read today.  Stephen Furtick of Elevation Church said this --


I have been trying desperately to run from this battle.  I want to take my toys and go home.  I am tired of praying.  Tired of trying to praise in the middle of a storm so ferocious I see no way out.  I am tired of watching my mother's health deteriorate.   And so I've tried to run from it all.  But in the moment I read that quote from Stephen Furtick, I realized that I can't run.  God never rewarded a quitter.  He never rewarded doubters.  He always asked His people to do something.  They had to take the first step, and then He took care of the rest.  He told those Old Testament guys to go fight, and then he would take care of the battle.  But they couldn't sit around in their tents while God did battle for them.  He said do all you can do and then stand.

He never said run.


And I have spent a lot of time desperately wanting to run from this battle.  The most difficult battle of my life.  I'm tired, and I just want God to fix everything.  Today.  

Fixing everything today would be awesome.

I don't want to run anymore.  Because I know that God is in the midst of the battle.  If I can't endure the battle, if I'm running from the battle, then there is no blessing.  I can't have both.  Because running means I don't trust my Jesus.  I have to stay in this, and I have to pray, and I have to trust Him.  

No more running.  

What testimony do I have if I run when things don't go my way?

What am I showing other Christians if I can't say with all my heart "no matter what happens, I'm gonna have GREAT FAITH in Jesus."

God isn't in the midst of my negativity.

God isn't in the midst of my pity party.

Stephen Furtick also said "the enemy can't prevent God from blessing you, but he might be able to prevent you from receiving it." 

I will not allow the enemy to rob me of God's blessing.  The blessing of His peace and His joy and His comfort. I want to receive everything God has for me.

I'm still praying for my mother.  Praying for complete and total healing.  Praying for a miracle.

I'm not running from the battle anymore. I want to be fully present no matter what.
I want to stand before Him one day and hear "well done."
I want others to see my Jesus in me, even in the midst of the storm.

Great faith is hard.  But it's not impossible.
Not when you trust in Jesus.

NO MORE RUNNING . . . . . . . 

Hebrews 6:19 - We have this HOPE as an anchor for our souls, firm and secure.

Jesus is my Hope.  I'm running to Him.

Monday, September 18, 2017

It's Been Awhile

Have you all missed me???  It's been awhile since I've posted.  It seems as if my days just FLY BY.  Can anybody else relate to this???  I used to think that as I got older life would slow down . . . . boy was I mistaken!!!  It seems to go faster and faster each day!!!

First of all I'm happy to report that MY DAUGHTER IS HOME!!!!!  They've been back nearly 3 weeks, they're moved into their house, and they are painting and putting in a new shower and decorating.   Unless you've had a child live far away you can't imagine how GREAT it feels to know that I can go see her anytime I want to (and no, I don't stop in every night te-he!)  Alex passed her real estate exam last week (WAHOO!) and will get her license next week.  So if you're in the Central Missouri area and you need a realtor just let me know!!!!

Speaking of my beautiful daughter, I'd like to ask for your prayers for her and our son-in-law.  They left last night on a 7 night Southern Caribbean cruise from San Juan, Puerto Rico.  And I know you're thinking what I'm thinking . . . . Hurricane Maria.  They cruise line has adjusted their itinerary to keep them safe, but you know this mama is just a tiny bit worried.  So, I would ask you to agree with me that hurricane maria just falls apart to NOTHING and doesn't impact their honeymoon in any way!!! 

Yes, I said honeymoon, and yes I know they've been married for over 2 years, but since our son-in-law was in the Marine Corps when they got married, he wasn't able to take enough leave for them to go on a cruise right after their wedding.  So they planned and saved and this trip has been booked for a LONG TIME!!  As I said, they've already had 3 of the ports of call changed, so the cruise really doesn't look much like the cruise they originally booked several months ago.  Please pray God's protection on them and all who are in that area.  And again, I'm praying that hurricane fizzles out to just a little old thunderstorm!!!

My mom has taken 3 chemo treatments since we got back from Houston, and she takes #4 tomorrow morning.  This will be her last dose of chemo until we go BACK to Houston the first week of October for new scans and to meet with her oncologist at MD Anderson.  We are praying and believing that the chemo has completely ANNIHILATED that tumor in the name of Jesus, never to return!!!  My mom is feeling pretty good considering she is on chemo.  She continues to struggle with her lack of appetite and maintaining her weight (she is so tiny), but we KNOW that God is working and we trust Him!!

So please join me in praising God for His goodness, asking Him for safe travels for our daughter and son-in-law, and healing for my mama in the name of Jesus!!


Tuesday, August 29, 2017

Isaiah 53:1-5

Who hath believed our report? and to whom is the arm of the Lord revealed?
For he shall grow up before him as a tender plant, and as a root out of a dry ground: he hath no form nor comeliness; and when we shall see him, there is no beauty that we should desire him.

He is despised and rejected of men; a man of sorrows, and acquainted with grief: and we hid as it were our faces from him; he was despised, and we esteemed him not.

 Surely he hath borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows: yet we did esteem him stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted.

 But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.


Wednesday, August 23, 2017


As someone said, if your prayers don't scare you, then they certainly don't scare the devil.  That is true!!!  


If you don't really believe what you're praying for will come to pass, then the devil has you fooled!  The Word is TRUTH.  God's promises are TRUTH. 


Whatever is going on in your life today, GOD has already given you everything you need.  So pray, and then trust Him!!! 


Tuesday, August 22, 2017

The Greatest Tragedy


Wednesday, August 9, 2017

It's Been A Long Wait . . .

On Monday my mom received her 8th chemotherapy treatment.  As with her prior 7 treatments, she went home with a "pump" that gives her additional chemo over the next 48 hours.  She goes back to the doctor today to have that pump removed.  She will go back to the doctor on Monday for blood work to check her white count, and if it's low, then she will get shots in the back of her upper arm to increase the white count so she can take the next chemo treatment. This "pattern" will continue four more times until my mom has taken a total of 12 chemo treatments.  Then we'll head back to her doctor in Houston for new scans and a new plan for where we go from here.

I can say with a big smile on my face that my mom is feeling great.  She is two days into her chemo treatment and she has had no nausea.  Praise the Lord.  She is a little tired, and she is starting to develop some sensitivity to cold (which she experienced during the first 7 treatments), but other than that she is doing wonderfully.

We continue to pray for COMPLETE HEALING for her in the name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth.    Jeremiah 32:37 says  "Behold, I am the Lord, the God of all flesh: is there any thing too hard for Me?"  And we are praising God for healing.  We know that He hears our prayer!!

In other news, I've been waiting for the month of August for a long time.  Our daughter and son-in-law will be home two weeks from today!!!  We are so very excited.  They've bought a house about 10 minutes from us and they'll be doing some painting and installing new flooring.  I can't wait to see them make the house a home!!  Our son-in-law will be starting school (actually the school starts 2 days before they get home but there's nothing he can do!) and Alex will be getting her real estate license.  We are counting the days until we see their faces!!!  It's been a long two years!!!

If you're looking for a song of encouragement, then check this out:

As always, please let me know if I can pray for you about something!!  Nothing is too small, or too big, for our God.  

Tuesday, August 1, 2017

Are You Who You Say You Are??

This is the story of two very famous athletes.  Both men claim to be Christians.  But are they who they say they are???

Steph Curry's latest Instagram post is quoting Scripture thanking God for his wife . . . they celebrated their 6th anniversary just a few days ago.  This past weekend Steph attended a wedding and after the wedding things got a little crazy.  Today the headlines say:  "Steph Curry Crashes House Party, Chugs Bud Light."  And it's 2017, so there's video of Steph, star player for the NBA Champion Golden State Warriors, chugging a Bud Light, and pictures of him with beer all over his shirt.

Tim Tebow's latest Instagram post is a video of a speech he gave, asking people if what they are fighting for in this life is worth it.  His video shows Tim at an event for special needs individuals, and at an orphanage.  No party crashing, no beer chugging, just a man trying to live his faith to the full.

So which man is truly living a life that brings glory and honor to God?  You can call yourself a Christian all day long and twice on Sundays.  But if your life doesn't line up with the Word of God, well, are you who you say you are?? 

Which of these men would you want praying for you?  Which of these men do you prefer as a role model for our children?

Really disappointed in you Steph Curry.  You talk the talk but you sure don't walk the walk.

Really proud of you Tim Tebow.  I'm certain you're not perfect, but it sure looks like you actually live the Christian life you talk about. We need more young men like you.