Monday, November 20, 2017

Updating Again

Mom had a doctor's appointment this morning.

It was decided that she is too weak to take maintenance chemo today, too weak to have oral surgery tomorrow to remove her teeth, and too weak to do the additional vertebroplasty to fix the remaining compression fracture.

So everything is on "hold" for right now.

She is in a lot of pain from getting the impressions done in her mouth, which has caused her to not be able to eat, which has caused her to lose weight she can't afford to lose.

So they sent her back home with some new pain medicine, some new medicine to try to heal her mouth, and instructed her to eat and gain weight.

Eating is very difficult for my mom.

She needs your effectual fervent prayer.
 The Word tells us that is the type of prayer that avails MUCH.

That is what my mom needs right now.
So please pray as if this was your mother, your sister, your daughter, your friend.

Pray with faith trusting our Lord Jesus that He is in control.
We stand upon His Word.

I thank you for your continued prayers.  They mean ever so much.
 

 




Thursday, November 9, 2017

Update

During the procedure Monday on mom's back, they discovered she has another compressed vertebra.  So 3 compression fractures instead of 2.  Sometime in the last 3 weeks another vertebrae became compressed.  They were only able to fix 2 of the fractures since, as the doctor explained, they can only do 2 at a time so instead of coming out of the procedure pain free . . . she's still hurting.

They have put her on a stronger pain medicine which helps a little, but of course doesn't take the pain away. She will have to go back in a couple of weeks for the same procedure to get the third compression fracture fixed. 

The only way to keep the compression fractures from continuing is to start giving her injections every six months to strengthen the bones.  But she has to have some teeth pulled before they can give her the injection, since the injection will make pulling any teeth nearly impossible, and my mom's teeth are not good.

In the middle of everything, my mom is trying to take maintenance chemo every week.

As you can imagine all of this is very discouraging to my mom, and to our entire family. 

I feel like a broken record, but I need you all to join me in speaking healing over my mother.  The issues just keep piling on and she needs a touch from Jesus.

We continue to put our trust in Him. 

He is our Strength.

He is our Healer.

Please agree with me in prayer for my beautiful mom.

And thanks to everyone who has stuck with me this past year and a half.

I know it's been a long time since I wrote anything that wasn't about my mom.

But our world pretty much revolves around my mom's health these days.

Thank you all for praying.  It is appreciated more than you can imagine.




Monday, November 6, 2017

Please Pray Today

Today at 1:00 p.m. my mom is having a procedure called "vertebroplasty" to fix the two compression fractures she has in her back.  She has been in nearly constant pain for 3 weeks since the fractures occurred.  So I ask all of you prayer warriors to PLEASE AGREE WITH US IN PRAYER FOR A ROUTINE PROCEDURE, NO COMPLICATIONS, AND COMPLETE RELIEF FROM THIS PAIN!!!!

The good news is, the first dose of maintenance chemo last week had no side effects!!!  So I know once mom has this procedure today and her pain ends, she can get back to building up some strength, putting on some weight, and FEEL BETTER!!!!  She is so tired of feeling bad.  She takes her second dose tomorrow, and then a maintenance chemo dose each week through January.  At that time we head back to MD Anderson in Texas for new scans and we are BELIEVING FOR COMPLETE HEALING IN HIS NAME!

Our hope is in Jesus.  He is our Source and our Strength.

Our hearts are broken for those in Texas affected by the evil that occurred yesterday.  Our prayers continue.

THANK EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU FOR PRAYING!!!

Wednesday, October 18, 2017

Great Faith Is Hard

Do you know how hard it is to have great faith??  I mean, really.  I read about some of those Old Testament folks, and I'm absolutely AMAZED at the unbelievable leaps of faith they took.  They left the land of their forefathers.  Noah built a boat, and it had never rained before on the earth.  But he built a boat anyway.  Abraham tied up his only son and lifted the knife above his body, moments away from offering him as a sacrifice.  But he had faith that somehow God was in control and he trusted Him no matter what.  Elijah told the heathens to pour water on the altar just a few moments before he prayed, asking God to send fire from heaven.  I wonder if he ever doubted?? I wonder if it ever crossed his mind what would happen if God didn't come through??  

These men had GREAT FAITH.

And in the New Testament, too.  Fishermen left their nets to follow a Man walking by who said "follow Me."  A tax collector left his job to become a disciple.  Two men who were already followers of John the Baptist left him to follow Jesus.  Paul abandoned his entire life's work and belief system to follow Jesus and preach the Gospel to the Gentiles.  And he endured persecution, stoning, beatings, and yet he clung to Jesus and he had GREAT FAITH that no matter what, Jesus was with him.

They all had GREAT FAITH.  And I know that while the pages of the Bible don't go into much detail of what those men were feeling during those moments of decision, I can only imagine the faith it must have taken to do what they did.

I will admit my faith has been far from great recently.

My beautiful mother took 4 chemo treatments this fall . . . but was just too tired and weak to take the 5th and final dose.  So the doctors decided to give her a break for a few weeks to build up some strength before "maintenance chemo" begins.  And just when she was beginning to feel better, just when she had started to drive again and go to the grocery store by herself and putter around in the yard, she bent over to take off her shoe last week and her back started hurting.  After several hours at the Emergency Room Sunday morning they discovered a compression fracture at L3 in her lower back.  My mom has osteoporosis and arthritis and her bones are weak and brittle.  

There's really nothing they can do to fix the break, it will just take time to heal.  So they sent her home with pain medicine and muscle relaxers.  The muscle relaxers make her very sleepy and loopy so she isn't taking them at all.  She takes 1/2 dose of the liquid pain medicine, but it has some side effects as well.  My mom is tiny and frail and weak and struggles to eat enough just to maintain her tiny weight.  She desperately wants to feel better.  She wants to be normal.  She wants her old life back.  We all do.

I'm being brutally honest here, so if want a light cheery blog post you should probably leave now.  But if you trust in Jesus, I urge you to stick with me . . . just for a few minutes.  
Cause I'm gonna be real.

These days I look at my mom, and I look at the situation, and my faith feels so tiny it's almost non-existent.  Negativity and doubt have crept in.  Those emotions, and other situations in my life, have robbed me of joy and peace.  I had begun to accept the lies of the enemy.  Lies that said my Jesus wasn't going to come through.  Lies that said I was on my own in the midst of this raging, relentless storm.  Lies that told me to give up.

But today I saw a post on Instagram that was exactly what I needed to read today.  Stephen Furtick of Elevation Church said this --

WHEN YOU RUN FROM THE BATTLE, YOU RUN FROM THE BLESSING!!

I have been trying desperately to run from this battle.  I want to take my toys and go home.  I am tired of praying.  Tired of trying to praise in the middle of a storm so ferocious I see no way out.  I am tired of watching my mother's health deteriorate.   And so I've tried to run from it all.  But in the moment I read that quote from Stephen Furtick, I realized that I can't run.  God never rewarded a quitter.  He never rewarded doubters.  He always asked His people to do something.  They had to take the first step, and then He took care of the rest.  He told those Old Testament guys to go fight, and then he would take care of the battle.  But they couldn't sit around in their tents while God did battle for them.  He said do all you can do and then stand.

He never said run.

HE NEVER SAID RUN.

And I have spent a lot of time desperately wanting to run from this battle.  The most difficult battle of my life.  I'm tired, and I just want God to fix everything.  Today.  

Fixing everything today would be awesome.

I don't want to run anymore.  Because I know that God is in the midst of the battle.  If I can't endure the battle, if I'm running from the battle, then there is no blessing.  I can't have both.  Because running means I don't trust my Jesus.  I have to stay in this, and I have to pray, and I have to trust Him.  

No more running.  

What testimony do I have if I run when things don't go my way?

What am I showing other Christians if I can't say with all my heart "no matter what happens, I'm gonna have GREAT FAITH in Jesus."

God isn't in the midst of my negativity.

God isn't in the midst of my pity party.

Stephen Furtick also said "the enemy can't prevent God from blessing you, but he might be able to prevent you from receiving it." 

I will not allow the enemy to rob me of God's blessing.  The blessing of His peace and His joy and His comfort. I want to receive everything God has for me.

I'm still praying for my mother.  Praying for complete and total healing.  Praying for a miracle.

I'm not running from the battle anymore. I want to be fully present no matter what.
I want to stand before Him one day and hear "well done."
I want others to see my Jesus in me, even in the midst of the storm.

Great faith is hard.  But it's not impossible.
Not when you trust in Jesus.

NO MORE RUNNING . . . . . . . 

Hebrews 6:19 - We have this HOPE as an anchor for our souls, firm and secure.

Jesus is my Hope.  I'm running to Him.




Monday, September 18, 2017

It's Been Awhile

Have you all missed me???  It's been awhile since I've posted.  It seems as if my days just FLY BY.  Can anybody else relate to this???  I used to think that as I got older life would slow down . . . . boy was I mistaken!!!  It seems to go faster and faster each day!!!

First of all I'm happy to report that MY DAUGHTER IS HOME!!!!!  They've been back nearly 3 weeks, they're moved into their house, and they are painting and putting in a new shower and decorating.   Unless you've had a child live far away you can't imagine how GREAT it feels to know that I can go see her anytime I want to (and no, I don't stop in every night te-he!)  Alex passed her real estate exam last week (WAHOO!) and will get her license next week.  So if you're in the Central Missouri area and you need a realtor just let me know!!!!

Speaking of my beautiful daughter, I'd like to ask for your prayers for her and our son-in-law.  They left last night on a 7 night Southern Caribbean cruise from San Juan, Puerto Rico.  And I know you're thinking what I'm thinking . . . . Hurricane Maria.  They cruise line has adjusted their itinerary to keep them safe, but you know this mama is just a tiny bit worried.  So, I would ask you to agree with me that hurricane maria just falls apart to NOTHING and doesn't impact their honeymoon in any way!!! 

Yes, I said honeymoon, and yes I know they've been married for over 2 years, but since our son-in-law was in the Marine Corps when they got married, he wasn't able to take enough leave for them to go on a cruise right after their wedding.  So they planned and saved and this trip has been booked for a LONG TIME!!  As I said, they've already had 3 of the ports of call changed, so the cruise really doesn't look much like the cruise they originally booked several months ago.  Please pray God's protection on them and all who are in that area.  And again, I'm praying that hurricane fizzles out to just a little old thunderstorm!!!

My mom has taken 3 chemo treatments since we got back from Houston, and she takes #4 tomorrow morning.  This will be her last dose of chemo until we go BACK to Houston the first week of October for new scans and to meet with her oncologist at MD Anderson.  We are praying and believing that the chemo has completely ANNIHILATED that tumor in the name of Jesus, never to return!!!  My mom is feeling pretty good considering she is on chemo.  She continues to struggle with her lack of appetite and maintaining her weight (she is so tiny), but we KNOW that God is working and we trust Him!!

So please join me in praising God for His goodness, asking Him for safe travels for our daughter and son-in-law, and healing for my mama in the name of Jesus!!

GOD IS GOOD, ALL THE TIME!!!!


Tuesday, August 29, 2017

Isaiah 53:1-5

Who hath believed our report? and to whom is the arm of the Lord revealed?
 
For he shall grow up before him as a tender plant, and as a root out of a dry ground: he hath no form nor comeliness; and when we shall see him, there is no beauty that we should desire him.

He is despised and rejected of men; a man of sorrows, and acquainted with grief: and we hid as it were our faces from him; he was despised, and we esteemed him not.

 Surely he hath borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows: yet we did esteem him stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted.

 But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed.

AMEN!!!!

Wednesday, August 23, 2017

PRAY BIG PRAYERS WITH FAITH!!!


As someone said, if your prayers don't scare you, then they certainly don't scare the devil.  That is true!!!  

PRAY BIG PRAYERS!!!

If you don't really believe what you're praying for will come to pass, then the devil has you fooled!  The Word is TRUTH.  God's promises are TRUTH. 

SO STAND ON THE TRUTH OF HIS WORD.  

Whatever is going on in your life today, GOD has already given you everything you need.  So pray, and then trust Him!!! 

GOD IS BIGGER THAN ANYTHING YOU ARE FACING!!!