Friday, February 2, 2018

February Has Arrived

If you are you like me, you're very disappointed that Tom Brady and the Patriots are in yet ANOTHER Super Bowl??  I am a huge football fan, but not a Brady/Patriots fan.  Is Tom Brady probably the greatest quarterback to ever play the game?  Yes.  He is extremely talented.  But Brady is, in my opinion, not a very nice guy.  So GO EAGLES!!!!!

I'm happy to say that my mom has had a fairly good week of being home.  She is eating better than we would have anticipated.  At least the scale isn't going backward which is a very good thing.  She's had some back pain, but after spending a few hours in the ER Wednesday evening the x-ray showed no new compression fractures (thank you Lord) so they sent her home with some pain meds and told her to take it easy.

I thank you for your continued prayers for her.  She so desperately wants to get better.  She wants to have her energy back and her strength back.  She wants to be able to clean her house and work out in the yard once spring comes. She wants to be able to cook her own meals and go to the grocery store.  We continue to trust the Lord for her healing.  He is our Hope.

Thursday, January 25, 2018

January Is Nearly Over

I just realized it has been over a month since I've updated Down On The Farm.  I hate to admit this, but part of the problem was figuring out how to sign in to this Google account (I have two and used to be able to switch back and forth easily but lately???).  This surely makes me sound old, but technology is both a blessing and a curse.  I have a love/hate relationship with it.  It is wonderful, and yet frustrating all at the same time.  Surely I'm not the only one who feels this way !!!  Come on admit it, you sometimes long for the days when a cordless phone in your house was cool and only huge corporations had computers!!!

Missouri has had some harsh weather already this year and spring is still a long time off.  Sub-zero temperatures and sub-zero wind chills and long stretches of days and days where it never got above freezing.  Man that type of weather is hard on animals and equipment and those of you who live this farm life North of the Mason-Dixon Line know what I mean.  My husband has been busy feeding hay, and warming up baby calves born in the "teeth" of the storm as the old timers would say.  Today, well today it's supposed to be 62 degrees and sunny.  Now that's my kind of January day.  If you've been here awhile you know I'm a spring and fall kind of girl.  You can keep your hot and muggy summertime days and your brutally cold snowy winter days.  Just give me 70 degrees and sunshine I'll take that all day every day!!!  But alas it's still winter and there is more snow in the forecast for next week. 

Now to the elephant in the room . . . my mom.  She continues to struggle.  We took mom to the doctor for fluids 2 days after Christmas, and had another compression fracture fixed 3 days after Christmas.  Frankly the doctor was not encouraging.  Mom's inability to nourish herself has become critical.  She continues to lose weight that she does not have to lose.  And it's not her fault.  She is not intentionally starving herself.  It is her mind and her body working against her.  Mom has spent the last 4 weeks at my sister's house where she can get 24/7 care since my sister works from home.  And the first week or so that she was there mom did rally.  She actually put on a couple of pounds.  She can get herself in and out of her chair by herself, and in and out of bed by herself.  Prior to that she couldn't even do that.  But her eating has plateaued.  She hasn't gained an ounce in the last 2 weeks and the home health nurse comes back today so I'm waiting to hear her weight later this afternoon.  Am I hopeful that mom has gained a little bit of weight?  Yes, of course I am.  Am I expecting it?  Frankly, no.  I spent 2 days at my sister's last week taking care of mom and giving my sister and brother-in-law a little bit of a break, and mom eats very little.  She thinks she eats constantly.  But there are more calories in one meal my husband would eat at McDonalds than my mom gets in an entire day.  We are bringing mom back home this weekend.  She is very homesick as my mom is a real "home body."  She just wants to be in her own home.

I really don't know what will happen over the next few weeks.  Mom isn't able to cook for herself, and my dad, well, as you can imagine he can microwave a little but he is no short order cook.  And mom is very picky.  She looks for any excuse NOT to eat something (too hot, too cold, too spicy, too tough, too thick, too thin, etc.) so it's HARD to have something she will eat.  I work full time.  So I can cook ahead and have things in small containers that my dad can heat up for her, but I can't quit my job and stay home and care for her.  And I carry a lot of guilt making that statement.  I'm not sure how long mom can stay at her own home.  But she doesn't want to stay at my house or my other sister's house.  She's tired and just wants to be at her own home and I get that.  But mom needs more care than my dad can give her.

So we struggle.  Do we give mom what she wants, or what she needs?  Left to her own decisions, mom is a couple weeks away from another hospital stay, and there isn't much they can do for her, as we all agree a feeding tube isn't the answer for her.  We've considered hiring someone to stay with her, but mom doesn't do well around someone she doesn't know.  We are a family at the end of our rope.  I am thankful that Jesus is our Hope.

Thursday, December 21, 2017

Merry Christmas Everyone

It's been a tough year for everyone who has stuck with my blog in 2017.  It seems about the only thing I post about is my mom.  Mainly because my life pretty much revolves around her right now.  

She spent a couple of days in the hospital earlier this week.  

She is struggling to eat and drink.  Just a few bites here and there are about all we can get in her.

Her blood work is good.  Her vitals are good.  

Her nutrition needs some MAJOR IMPROVEMENT.

If you've stuck with me this far, then you must be a prayer warrior, cause there hasn't been much entertainment on my blog for a long time.  Today, my mother needs your prayers.  We are praying for strength.  We are praying for appetite.  We are praying for encouragement. 

We are speaking life and health into her body in the name of Jesus.

She's tired and we're tired, but thank God HE NEVER SLEEPS!!

He is our Hope.

He is our Peace.

He is our Source.

Thank you for praying.

Merry Christmas to you all.

I'm so thankful for Jesus.  He is my Savior.  

Thursday, December 14, 2017

11 Days Til Christmas

I don't have my Christmas tree up and it's not looking good that I will get it put up.  The jury is still out but every day that goes by makes it a little easier to NOT put it up.  But who knows . . . I may get energetic this weekend.  Heaven knows my house could use some Christmas cheer. 

I have purchased a few gifts but none are wrapped.

I haven't even ordered Christmas cards so for the first time in years it doesn't look like anyone will get a Christmas card from me. Again, there's still this weekend for my interest level in Christmas cards to kick in.  I'll let you know.

I did set out my little glass Christmas tree collection on my mantle. . . does that count for anything?

Seriously . . . InstaGram makes me feel so inadequate, especially at Christmas time.
 My mom has had a tough time.  We did get the two remaining compression fractures fixed last week (yes there were two instead of one . . . again) and her back is feeling better.  But she is really struggling to eat.  She has no energy.  She just sits and watches television and naps.

I have prayed, I have bound, I have rebuked.

I have pled the blood of Jesus.  I have quoted Scripture.  I have called and asked for prayer from every reputable Christian ministry I can think of.

We have some big decisions to make where her treatment is concerned.

She needs your prayers.

My hope is in Jesus, and I trust Him completely.

But I wouldn't be honest if I didn't admit that there are days I just don't understand.

Psalm 27: 13-14
I would have lost heart, unless I had believed
That I would see the goodness of the Lord
In the land of the living.
Wait on the Lord;
Be of good courage,
And He shall strengthen your heart;
Wait, I say, on the Lord!

Monday, December 4, 2017

You Might Be A Farm Wife






Wednesday, November 29, 2017


When I posted about my mom last week the news wasn't very good .  My mom had a really tough weekend before last.  But this past weekend, Thanksgiving weekend, I'm happy to report was a completely different story.

My mom is better.  Much better than weekend before last.  She is eating and drinking more than she had been, and has regained a couple of the few pounds she lost (praise the Lord!).  In fact when she went Monday morning for her maintenance chemo the doctor and nurses were amazed at the difference just one week had made.

Her doctor has decided to let mom build up some strength before we proceed with the vertebroplasty (to fix the compression fracture in her back) and with pulling any teeth.  She did take her maintenance chemo Monday, and the side effects were minimal and we praise God for that.  We want her to have another week of eating and feeling better before we do anything else.

She does have an issue with her blood thinner and she needs your prayers for that.  She will get her blood tested again today and we're believing for a good report in Jesus name.

She does still have some pain from her back, but after they changed her pain meds it is better.  And her mouth is better too which has made it easier for her to eat.

So that said, PLEASE keep praying for her.  This is a long road and we still trust that God is in control.  It really is a rollercoaster ride, physically and mentally, for my mom and for our family.  We continue to stand upon God's Word that says by His stripes SHE IS HEALED.  We pray for that daily.   Mom feels better, but she never really feels "good."  Her strength has improved from weekend before last, but she is still weak.  Next week we hope to do the vertebroplasty for the compression fracture so we can get her off the pain medicine which will make her feel even better!  The teeth, well, the doctor is looking for another type of medicine to strengthen mom's bones so we don't have to get her teeth pulled anytime soon.  Our concern is the pain from the extractions will set her back a few days by making it painful to eat, and we're not at a point where she can afford to go several days without eating.

I want to say THANK YOU to everyone who is praying for my mom.  And I'm sure there are some of you reading this blog who say "prayer doesn't seem to be helping 'cause your mom is still sick."  We fix our eyes on Jesus.  Faith means trusting in what we don't yet see.  We don't see her complete healing, but we are trusting Jesus.  We believe He is the same yesterday, today and forever. Yes, we have days of being discouraged.  Just being honest.  But when the devil whispers his lies we CHOOSE TO STAND UPON THE WORD OF GOD.  WE ARE BLESSED BY THOSE WHO STAND WITH US AND REFUSE TO STOP PRAYING AND BELIEVING WITH US

May God bless you all. 

Monday, November 20, 2017

Updating Again

Mom had a doctor's appointment this morning.

It was decided that she is too weak to take maintenance chemo today, too weak to have oral surgery tomorrow to remove her teeth, and too weak to do the additional vertebroplasty to fix the remaining compression fracture.

So everything is on "hold" for right now.

She is in a lot of pain from getting the impressions done in her mouth, which has caused her to not be able to eat, which has caused her to lose weight she can't afford to lose.

So they sent her back home with some new pain medicine, some new medicine to try to heal her mouth, and instructed her to eat and gain weight.

Eating is very difficult for my mom.

She needs your effectual fervent prayer.
 The Word tells us that is the type of prayer that avails MUCH.

That is what my mom needs right now.
So please pray as if this was your mother, your sister, your daughter, your friend.

Pray with faith trusting our Lord Jesus that He is in control.
We stand upon His Word.

I thank you for your continued prayers.  They mean ever so much.