Wednesday, January 29, 2020

End of an Era

Sometime in the early morning hours of Sunday, January 26th, our brooder barn (the barn where the baby turkeys are started) burned to the ground.

To put things in perspective, this barn is 50' wide and 440' long.

Since it was the middle of the night nobody was in the barn and we're thankful no one was injured.

We still have 3 turkey barns, the "grow out" barns, and they have turkeys in them.  Once those birds ship out the end of February, we will be out of the turkey business.  You can't raise turkeys without a brooder barn.

Due to their age, our turkey barns were not insured for replacement value, and the cost to rebuild is frankly a lot.  So by the time we would build a new brooder barn and then work all those years to pay for the new building, it's just not worth it to us.
Especially at our age!!!

This is truly the end of an era for us.

We've been raising turkeys for 22 years.

We knew the day would come when we didn't raise turkeys any longer because our barns are old and eventually they wear out.  But we thought the decision would be ours to make,  not made for us. 

But I know that the Lord has a plan and I trust Him.

Please pray for God's wisdom as my husband and I embark on a new phase of life.  We intend to focus on our beef cattle operation and hopefully do some traveling since we won't be tied to taking care of turkeys.

This is truly the end of an era for us.

But an era we're looking forward to

Thursday, July 25, 2019

The Promise Is His Presence

I attended a women's retreat in the spring of 2018 at Concord Baptist Church in Jefferson City, Missouri.  My sweet friend Carrie who blogs over at Farming On Faith is the Women's Ministry Director at Concord Baptist, and she invited me to attend.  A lady by the name of Glenna Marshall sang and played piano, and she also spoke during one of the sessions. I've been "following" Glenna on social media ever since and you can check out her blog HERE.  She is an amazing woman of God and I have been so very blessed by things she shares.  God is using her in a mighty way!!!

Turns out, Glenna has written a book called "The Promise Is His Presence."  

I received an advance PDF copy of the book and I can tell you this book has spoken to me in the very depths of my soul.  It has comforted me and challenged me more than I could have imagined.  
Glenna shares her own personal story of struggles with infertility and sickness, and seeking to understand where God is in the midst of these trials.

God isn't a genie in a bottle.  He isn't just sitting up there waiting on our prayers so he can grant our every wish.  God has one desire, and that is for us to love Him above all else.  To love Him even in the difficult times.  For Him to be enough, even when the prayers aren't answered the way we would have hoped.  And let's be honest, there are many times that God's plan is different from ours.
Ladies I have struggled with this.  When I need something from God, I expect Him to give it to me.  And when He doesn't, well, I don't understand.  God's desire is for my heart's desire to be Him, and Him alone.  Not what He can do for me.  But what He has already done.  He wants to be enough.  When my mom passed away last summer I was so broken-hearted.  I couldn't understand why God did not heal her.  And while I still don't understand, through Glenna's book, I'm reminded that God is God no matter the situation or circumstance.  Even during the midst of the most difficult time in my life, GOD WAS WITH ME.  Even when I didn't feel Him, He was there.

If you read one book this year, I urge you to pick up a copy of "The Promise Is His Presence."  I believe God will speak to you like He spoke to me through this book and encourage you to keep your eyes firmly on the Savior.  He truly is with us always, and His presence is always enough.

"The Promise Is His Presence is available through CVBBS  (on sale through tomorrow!)
and of course through Amazon.

**I received a free advance PDF copy of this book for my review.  I can assure you my opinion is honest and unbiased and completely my own.  I have purchased several copies of Glenna's book to give as gifts to friends and family members.  Once you read it, I think you'll want to order several more copies to give as gifts.  WE ALL NEED HIS PRESENCE.

Tuesday, July 16, 2019


One year ago this morning, at 7:28 a.m., my mother opened her eyes and took her first breath in heaven.  Faith became sight.  Sickness became healing.  Fear became joy.  Worry became eternal peace.  Jesus Christ took her weary hand in His nail scarred hand.  She was given a robe and a crown.  A saint returned home.
And heaven rejoiced.

I love you so much, mom.  I miss you with an ache that is almost physical.  The weight of grief is the hardest burden I've ever carried.  It never gets any easier.  I will miss you until my last breath. You were wonderful and I'm so thankful you were my mother.  I hope I've made you proud.

Though I fail Him many times, I'm following Jesus just like you taught me.  So when you see me crossing the Jordan River one day, please come running to me.  I'll be running to you. 

Thursday, April 25, 2019


My cousin asked me to send her a paragraph on "faith."  
Below is my response:

According to Romans 12:3, I believe each Christian is given “the measure of faith” by God when we become a follower of Jesus.  Everyone living for Christ has faith because God gave it to us.  Now what we do what that faith is up to us.  We can spend our lives barely hanging on, or we can build our faith.  Romans 10:17 says “faith comes by hearing, and hearing by the Word of God.”  So the more time we spend in the Word, the stronger our faith becomes!  Wow!!!

 I have had so many times in my life where my faith was all I had.  When my mom was diagnosed with cancer, I had faith that God was going to heal her.  I knew it in my heart.  God did heal her, but it was at the moment He took her to heaven, I never saw her healing with my physical eyes.  So was my faith in vain?  NO!!  God never promised us that this life would be easy. In fact, Jesus Himself said in John 16:33 “in this world YOU WILL HAVE TROUBLE!!  But be of good cheer, I HAVE OVERCOME THE WORLD.”   Our faith that God is with us no matter what our enemy the devil brings against us is what enables us to persevere.  

Faith is what keeps us from giving up in the midst of trials, sorrow, sickness.  Faith is saying “God, Your will be done.”  If I did not know that God loved me, and that no matter what I have to endure on this earth, I will spend eternity with Him, I could not go on.  Life is hard and unfair and the day to day absolutely wears me down.  But thank God He is making all things new and one day none of the things I have stressed about will matter.  The cares will be erased from my memory and I will only see Him.  Faith brings peace.  

Resting in Jesus and in His love for me.

Friday, January 18, 2019

Check Out My Daughter's Blog!!

You remember my beautiful daughter, Alex!  She played volleyball in high school and got married and graduated from college in the blink of an eye and now she lives 0 minutes from me!  She has her teaching certificate and is applying for teaching jobs in our hometown.  To say I am proud of her would be a

Alex has her own blog and it's called "Blissfully Alex!"  She is a great cook and decorator and posts pictures of her husband and her three dogs and recipes and home decor and the day-to-day life of a young married couple.  So please take a few minutes and check out her blog!  You'll be so glad you did!!


Tuesday, January 15, 2019


One of my beautiful friends saw my post on my "Word" for 2019 -- SCATTER.  And look what she had made for me??

I have the best friends!!  They are SUCH a blessing to me!!

Thursday, December 27, 2018

My "Word" for 2019 is . . . . .

It has become popular for people to pick a word that represents a goal or a desire for the coming year.  But before I tell you my word for 2019, let me go back and remind you of my "words" from prior years.

My "Word" for 2015 was MORE.  I wanted MORE of Jesus.  You can read that post HERE.  Little did I know when I wrote that post that in 2015 my children would get married 49 days apart and our daughter would move 1,800 miles away to the state of California.  I truly needed MORE of Jesus as our daughter moving away was very hard on me.  Don't get me wrong, I was so happy for her.  But I MISSED HER!!  Our family is very close and we're used to spending a lot of time together.  That can't happen when one of the family lives so far away.  So I went to visit her two months after she got married and we talked on the phone every single day and I trusted Jesus that He could take care of her and He did.  They are now back home in Missouri safe and sound and live about 10 minutes away from me. Thank you Jesus for giving me MORE.

My "Word" for 2016 was PRAYER.  Specifically the power of prayer. You can read that post HERE.
Again, I could not have known how desperately I would need the power of prayer when I wrote that post.  My beautiful mother was diagnosed with colon cancer on July 29, 2016 and I needed more prayers than I had ever needed before.  There aren't words to describe how much I appreciated all the prayers that were lifted for my mother, and for me.  And while our prayers were not answered the way we wanted, I KNOW that I KNOW that I KNOW that my mother is healed and whole today, walking the streets of heaven and praising Jesus.  Her faith has truly become sight.  I can only imagine what she has seen and I look forward to the day when she meets me at those heavenly gates beside my Savior. What a day that will be.  Thank you Jesus for the power of PRAYER.

Based on the last two "Words" I chose you might be thinking "be careful what word you use!"  And I would say that's very true.  But how could I have known how important those two words would be in my life?  In January of both 2017 and 2018 I didn't pick a word.  I was consumed and overwhelmed with my mom's illness and taking care of her.  But I feel like for 2019 it's time for me to choose another word.

My "Word" for 2019 is SCATTER.  

My husband and I were watching television the other night and they were interviewing a famous man and he said something that has really stuck with me:

"You will be remembered, not for what you gather,
but for what you SCATTER."

The evening of my mom's visitation this past July over 400 people stood in line to pay their respects and to speak to me and my sisters and my dad.  They all shared a common theme of what a wonderful person she was, and what a difference she had made in their lives.  They talked about what a strong faith she had and how she had shared Jesus with them in life changing ways.  My mom SCATTERED her faith throughout her entire life and people remembered it and it changed them.  My mom made a difference because she SCATTERED the love of Jesus everywhere she went.

So for 2019 and beyond I want to be intentional about doing that same thing . . . . scattering the love of Jesus.  Asking people if they know Him, and sharing my faith with them boldly.  The loss of my mother has reminded me that this life is only temporary.  Only what we do for Jesus matters.  And above all else I want my life to have mattered for the kingdom of God.  I want to scatter blessings and generosity and encouragement and faith and hope and love.  People are desperate for something real, and Jesus is as real as it gets.