I'm going to be completely honest and tell you that I have put off writing this post.
I wish I could tell you that we got to Houston and everything went wonderfully.
I wish I could tell you that mom's CT scan was completely normal and showed that the cancer had not spread.
I wish I could tell you that the Lord had healed her and we are rejoicing.
My mom has seven tumors in her liver.
They are inoperable at this time.
We have an appointment on Monday to meet with an oncologist to begin chemotherapy treatments locally as soon as possible. Our prayer is that the chemotherapy can shrink the tumors to the point she can have surgery in about four months (we go back to Houston the end of January). Either they will operate and remove all seven, or they won't operate at all. It's all or nothing when it comes to removing cancerous tumors in the liver.
If the chemotherapy does not shrink the tumors enough to operate then, as the doctor put it,
we begin "buying time."
My friends, I believe that Jesus is the Healer, and I believe He can heal my mom.
But I will be honest with you and admit that sometimes my faith feels very weak.
Sometimes I take my eyes off of the Healer and I focus on the diagnosis.
Sometimes I feel very hopeless.
Sometimes I carry this burden instead of laying it at His feet.
I need your prayers for my mom and dad (Donna and Robert).
Our family needs prayer as we walk through this trial.
We need a touch from the Master's hands.
Thank you all for praying.
I promise to get back to posting about much lighter things soon, but right now my heart is pretty heavy. I humbly ask for your prayers.
May the Lord bless you all.
Sometimes, I don't leave a comment but rather in silence, I leave a prayer. I know sometimes silence is golden especially when one is going through a tough time. I know no words of encouragement can beat the Word which is always faithful, true and eternal.
ReplyDeleteIt's a lot easier sometimes to not fight and be tossed around by the waves of trials. But like Peter who lost his focus and was overcome by fear as he walked towards Jesus, the Bible says Jesus "IMMEDIATELY", not after a few minutes, reached his hand out to Peter to save him from sinking.
I pray for the Lord to give you and your family, especially your mom and your dad to have that comfort that His hand truly never lets go no matter what wind or waves of trial you all are facing. Take care sister and may you always remain strong in the Lord's mighty power.
God bless you as you walk through the fire on this. I know you think you are weak. I read it in you words...but I see a woman who loves deeply and cares for two people that have meant so much to her all her life. God also has not forsaken you or forgotten you. He listens to your prayers. I see Him leaning in to hear you. And it is good that He reads hearts, too. Because sometimes we do not have the words, yet we feel in our heart so deeply.
ReplyDeletePraying for you, and for your precious mom, and for your dad. May God gird you all with His strength and help you through this. Believing Him for healing and a miracle for your mom. Like you, I believe in the Healing Jesus, too.
Praying for you and your family and your parents, Robbin. Try to keep your heart in this day...this moment...don't let your mind jump ahead to the fears and worries of tomorrow. I know that is easy to say and difficult to do! The Lord is with you each step of the way. How precious it is to rest our hearts in Him. Psalm 46; Isaiah 26:3-4; Isaiah 43:1-3 are all wonderful passages to meditate on in these days of uncertainty. May you know the peace of our Lord as you follow Him through these deep waters. Big Hugs! Camille
ReplyDeletePrayers from Northern California abound.
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ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry about this diagnosis. I know the roller coaster cancer can put a family on, so I will specifically pray for all of you.
There aren't really any comforting words that anyone can offer during this kind of trial, except to echo the fact that God will never leave you.
Expect some great blessings of love and compassion and offerings of help and friendship. Accept them all.
Also, expect to be mad, sad, scared, fearful and defeated. These are normal feelings and they don't mean that you don't have faith, so don't believe that lie.
The bottom line is to enjoy every moment with your mom and make special memories together.
I'll be praying.
I'm soooo sorry to hear this news. I started crying with you. I remember when my grandma was diagnosed. We wound up loosing her on 9/11/2007. I still miss her every day like crazy. My grandpa followed her 9 months later on Father's Day 2008. Both had oral cancer (but in different locations). I"m sorry and I know that sounds so cliche, but I truly am! Chemo will take its toll on your mom. Be there with her every step. You'll never regret it! I took a picture of my grandma and grandpa with me in June of 2007. My grandma had been through radiation and chemo and wanted to throw a fit about having a picture taken, but I refused and made her be in the picture. That's the last picture I have of her and I cherish it every day! And I'm sure none of this is helping... I know it isn't... but I'm crying because I know what you guys are getting ready to go through and it makes me so sad. Cancer Sucks!
ReplyDeleteOh I truly hate to hear this ...but I do believe in our Lord. I will pray for your parents and your whole family...because illnesses involve the family. I pray the Lord will help the tumors shrink. I pray your family will be strong and help each other thru the tough days. Blessings, xoxo, Susie
ReplyDeleteThis news stopped me in my tracks. Wishing the best for your mom and praying her doctors find the best course to take. Praying Jesus holds her hand and sends her a miracle. Hugs
ReplyDeleteI, too, am sorry for your mom's diagnosis. I will pray for all of you! Cling to your faith, family, and your friends as you walk this path. In the eye of this storm, God is in control and will go before you!
ReplyDeleteRobbin- I have been thinking about you all day. I am going to send you an email. I think I have your addy. xo Diana
ReplyDeleteOh sweet friend. Sending prayers and encouragement your way. Lifting up your whole family today.
ReplyDeleteblessings,
karianne
Sending prayers- my mother too has cancer, except hers is in the lung. Praying for best results.
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